thoughts a few days back:
don’t rush me into anything. don’t rush me into being friends. don’t even rush me into being civil with you. don’t rush me now as you’ve rushed everything in the 2 or so years we were together. if you’re happy now as you have wanted to be, then stay in that place. don’t try to drag my son or me into that chaotic world that is yours. no. someday, and i’m not saying it’s too far away, someday you will be welcome into our worlds again. just don’t rush anymore. it’s time to be adults. so don’t mention rights and don’t say unfair. don’t say you lose as if you did. nobody lost, nobody won. what rights you think you have aren’t rights but privileges you need earn. there are things that adults need to earn you know, like trust, like respect, like being dad. you don’t become dad by providing genes. you don’t become dad by providing money. i hope you actually understand that now.