It’s one of those nights…when I can’t get myself to stop thinking about the monsters in my head. Sigh. I always want to think that I am beyond these things already, but there are days and nights when the nostalgia shatters my peace, the past threatens my future.
I wish and I pray that the day will come when the thoughts of them, especially the mistress, wouldn’t affect me as much anymore. I wish and I pray that I will have enough strength to carry me to that moment.
I do have realized that I am better off without him. It’s just doesn’t come easy for me to forgive, least to forget.
Am I so bad?